So this isn't so much a rant as it is me vocalizing my concerns about tomorrow. Tomorrow is my last day of Foundations of Nursing Practice - a class on the basics of nursing care such as positioning, bathing, procedures ie cath insertion, feeding tube insertion, tracheostomy suctioning, IV preparation and insertion, injection, etc. We've gone over all these skills briefly in lab and tomorrow is my final competency, or as I liked to call it the lab "practical" in which we pick one of 8 skills out of a hat and have to perform it. I'm totally and irrationally petrified.
Okay maybe I'm exaggerating a bit.
Needless to say, I'm worried. It's scary. This is real nursing stuff, I'll be performing on a mannequin, but I'm going to be watched and points will be taken off if I forget something, do something wrong, break sterility, or what have you. I'm fairly confident I'll pass, but the irrational fear still lingers.
I haven't studied as much as a I could have, and I have no one to blame but myself. Maybe I'm afraid that I'll choke and mess up entirely and they'll take one look, at me, tell me I'm worthless and not fit to be a nurse.
Anyway, this time tomorrow it will be over and I'll no doubt be laughing at how nervous I was.
